Wednesday, December 30, 2009

2009~

Well...it's been a while since I updated my blog...

another year has come and pass...but this year is not like any other year i've been through...

2009 is a year where it has transformed into a butterfly...a grown women...i can say...

at the age of 25 i have experience almost everything life has to offer...

year 2009 has taught me the meaning of loosing the ones you love..

I lost my friends and friendship when the mid year enters...

And a few days before new year...i lost the man i love and experienced the first real heartache in my life...

So this is how it feels...to feel hurt...so i guess Allah wants to show me this feelings that maybe in the past i somehow cause in some people...my mother, father...my friends...

Allah has always been kind to me no matter what, as for every looses in life i have always gain something more...and only time will tell...

my heart will heal...but a dear friend even told me...it even take the longest....

dear friends that is there to wipe my tears....thank you...only Allah has the power to repay your kindness and i will always pray for your happiness..

and please dun blame urself if ur kindness didn't manage to stop my tears...my tears just has their nature of streaming down uncontrollably lately..that's all~

and to him..when u came into my life..u taught me courage, u showed me intelligence, u taught so much and u even taught me pain...wish u all the best and all i want is for u to be happy...u are the best thing that has ever happen to me...thank you for the memories...

i close my book for now....Happy New Year 2010.....

i decide not to make any yearly resolution..but i make daily resolution in years to come....a more realistic one...

and tell the people that u love before it to late and that includes Allah..take care people~

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

H.A.P.P.Y~

Psst....

how are u people..

i notice...i was sitting on a table right outside my room with my two favorite girlfriends...

i can't stop smiling cause m very happy...

hehehe...

why should not i be happy...

surrounded w my beautiful family..

great friends...

blessed by Allah with all the wonderful things...

and to break the super happy news..

I have proudly settled my ptptn debts two days ago...

and u know what the best things bout it...

I used no ones money except my very own...

4 solid months w/out shopping n ikat peyut (tp still bulat cm ikan kembung~)..

but everything was worth it..

hehehe...

buybye debt..buhbye ptptn~

and i love u and u and u and u and u....hehehehe~

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Mmembazir~

So just got back from home and I miss my family...

especialy the times where there are only four of us gurls wud sit in the dining room having dinner n sharing jokes..

i know it not nice to talk with your mouth full..but hey..what the heck..hehehhe..

so we were having dinner and my youngest sis burped out loud..i scowled at her..

then i decided to tease her..

while looking at her plate there is still food on it..lotsa of it to be exact..

then i said 'patutnya, after u burp..makruh tau mkn lg'

then my lil sis jawab..'ala, makruh jer..bkn nyer haram'

then i retaliate 'tp makruh x disukai Allah' *sambil wat muke org ilmu tinggi*

then one of my lil sibs cut the conversation by saying..

'ala, membazir tu amalan syaitan..lg Allah x suke!'....

darn it..segala muke knowlegeble have been wiped out of my face..

then those two youngsters high fived each other tanda kemenangan..

ampeh nyer bdk2 kecik....

yg eldest hanya gelak n geleng kepala...

hohohoh...

i miss them~

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Name pelik~

I was sitting in front of the computer working on my review and surfing the net..

Facebook to be exact....going thru friends profile..

i notice one thing...

then i convey my thoughts out loud to my roomate and a friend..

'asal name pelik jer mesti cantik'

then i add..

'patut mama bg name pelik dulu..baru lawa..teheeeee'

pastu my fren menyampuk..

'hek eleh..kalo muke lawa takper la...cube kalo muke pun pelik...da la muke pelik..name pun pelik..ntah ape2 ntah...'

cet..aku baru nk berangan..such a turn off la kak wai ni..

hahahaha...

*aku ngah giler rojak n sengkuang n esok penang bridge run n stamina aku maseh ampeh..hehehe*

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Where do we go from here~



Well here i am sitting in the comfort of my own room (i mean hostel room)...

juggling so many things at the same time..

reading books, journals, and literature review...

my deadline for the review is almost up..but thinking of asking for extension...

a lil stress..but i love my new life and my roomate and the fun n funny gals next door...

well am not gonna talk bout that...

well..i just wanna ask one thing..

sape2 nk jawab silela..i just wanna kutip experience by sharing and hope u'll share it with me...

i kno a few of us are studying..working...married..happy..frustrated..missing someone..just got hurt from being dump...healing from an old heart break..starting a new relationship..given up life...n more...

here's the ultimate question...

'i was wondering where do u go from here?'

looks like and easy Q..tp i invite u to answer...

(n_n)

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Freedom~

*aku (bukan badan sebenar*

It only took 40 minutes when the table to be turn or someone fate could turn...

40 minutes, is all takes from my freedom to be taken away form me..

the day b4 i was a haapy bunny who cud go and hop anywhere she wants..a few minutes later..she stuck within a compund for 8 hr a day five days a week..

hehehe...

For the past three months my former SV is like sweetheart...

even if i come to school or not (bkn skola rendah ek..hehehe)..she wudn't care less..

After 40 minutes meeting with the new SV...she said this to me...

'From my point of view..master students, they are like working people..everyday i expect you to come to school 8.15 in the morning till 5 pm in the evening...i expect results,and only results...oo,one more thing..i am the type who'll follow my students..i'll even call in the middle of the night if i want too..'

adehhhh...kembali ke alam pekerjaan la aku ni..

the only difference is i can wear jeans and sneakers to work..

well..look on the bright side...maybe her strictness will helped me learn and speed things up..

haish...life is getting harder for me..isk3x~

selamat kembali ke zaman mereng..huahuahua~

well...look on the bright side..i still have my weekends kn~

hello work..goodbye freedom~

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Stranger~

Remember when you were young when your mama always tells u never talked to stranger..

Well at some points..she is true..it is dangerous..

but as I grow up..I like to be surrounded by strangers..

It's easier if you live in the world where no one knows you..

A world where no one is too judgmental or too scrutinizing..

Being older I realize..I find it more comfortable sharing stories, memories or hurtful moments with a stranger..

It's just pure weird when you sometimes find strangers company very comforting and non intimidating..

and sometimes it's also weird to find some of 'em very understanding...

I wish I can live in a world filled w strangers..don't u?

Sunday, October 25, 2009

ptptn~

I watched oprah one day..

a guest she had with her was a finance experts..

quoted form the genius..

'you are really saving when you have no debts'

which lead me to make an excruciating embarrassing decision..hehehe..

i asked my ma..'ma, byrkn ptptn adik dulu bleh..i promise i find ways to pay u back'..

n she said 'ok..nnti adik bgtau mama ape mama kene wat..'

'LOVE U MA.....weeeehuuuuuuu~'

hey..at least better than utang ngan lintah darat ptptn tu...

hehehe..

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

it's ok not to get mad~

dr dulu i always thought i have trouble expressing my feelings..

i thought i suppress everything inside..

having all my friends telling me how weird it is not knowing how to get mad..

honestly..i thought i was sick inside..

but later i learn..it's just my nature..

i knew n my body n head knew..it ain't healthy..

getting mad never helped..it makes u even sick inside..

that's why i said in my shout out..

no more hatred..there never were..

only love..cause life is too short to be wasted on something stupid..

when you have so much love to share...

take care people...

i love you all...

and tell the people you love them b4 it's to late..

be4 time itself is running out...

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Duit Raya~

*kisah benar ini sudah diubah sedikit for entertainment purpose..but it's real ok..*

kakak aku yang cun sering dikejar ramai jejaka...

so raya tahn ni yg adala seorg admirer kakak aku datang...

nk ambik hati keluarga la konon..

so nk x nak aku pun kene layan skali...*roll eyes*

pastu tym die nk dekat balik tu...

dia panggil aku...

'adik meh cni..nah..duit raye'

aku senyum lebar...*air mata bertakung terharu..sbb aku nyer zaman duit raye da berakhir thn lepas*

u kno what..aku x kesah la aku pendek n bulat..

awet muda..and above all..aku dapt duit raye...

maybe next year aku shud serve admire kakak aku w double ponytail so can innocently double my duit raye..hahahahaha....

Friday, September 18, 2009

mee goreng mamak~

satu hari aku ke kedai mamak...

menemani kawan ku...

aku teringin mee goreng mamak n ayam goreng...

aku jerit..'ane(accent gaya heroin filem tamil)..mee goreng mamak 1 kasi letak ayam' (bahasa pun jd broken gak..xleh blah)

kawan aku pesan nan jer...

beberapa menet kemudian pesanan ku sampai...

aku tetibe berang kerana ayam goreng yg ku suruh tambah xder kt atas mee goreng mamak ku..

aku pun bg isyarat panggil pelayan yg serupa ngan filem hero tamil itu agar dtg ke arahku...

'ane....td saye pesan ayam...' (nada ku agak kasar)

pelayan it mengangkat tangan tanda agai aku bersabar..

'dik..kasi sabar...itu ayam ade bawah itu mee'.....

aku tersipu....

'sori ane..saye x tau'(aku sengih kambing smbil tgk keliling..malu nagn commotion aku sniri caused)

moral of the story: selak dulu mee sbelum mengamuk..hehehe...

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aku da lame x mkn bnda manis..even teh tarik..isk

selamat ari raye maaf zahir batin.......

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Sitting Still~

m sitting still in my room~

very quite~

then there were words that echoed in my head~

'Learn to forgive yourself before you forgive others'

Should I forgive myself and let go now?

I still need time to find the answer...

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Silly~

My shout out in facebook a few days back...
'I wanna do silly stuff in public just to see how much do I care what people think of me'..

I asked myself 'am I too old for doing silly stuff or act doofus in public?'..
Flashback during time when I was in Uni and Matric..
I did lots of silly stuff..never cared what other people think of me..

I used to burp in public (i know..it's disgusting)..say 'Hi' to a stranger that i think is cute or hot..

I even once sang for a crush of mine by making dedication through Radio 4 on 'Romantic Tuesday'..
After I have been encouraged by friends of course...
I won an atomic kitten CD for the best dedication..but I never get my hands on the CD..hehehe..
And I knew a few friends of mine accidentally overheard the dedication through the radio..
I was never embarrassed..We had loads of fun...
I didn't have any idea that crush of mine heard it or not.....hahahaha...
silly days...
oh I'm getting old..but I can assure you that I'm still young at heart..hehehee..

I wanna go back through that time time where I never really cared about anything not fear of being me..

Wanna join me...Jom...hehehe...
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i had ice cream last nyte..just can't help myself..hehehe..

Saturday, September 5, 2009

my music list~

You want to stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep
I was meant to tread the water
Now I've gotten in too deep
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart

You already waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me
And I can say I've never bought you flowers
I can't work out what they mean
I never thought that I'd love someone
That was someone else's dream

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might call you from my heart

But it might me a second too late
And the words that I could never say
Gonna come out anyway

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart
Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Ramadhan yg sedikit lain~

seseorang pernah berkata pada ku (benar ku ak ingat siapa tapi kata nya kukuh terpahat di hati ku ini)..

'Jangan tinggalkan hati kite pada manusia..dikhuatiri akan disakiti'

'Akan tetapi tinggalkan hati mu pada Yang Maha Esa..InsyaAllah kamu tidak akan disakiti kerana Dia tahu apa yang terbaik untuk mu'

Aku mula belajar akan hal ini sedikit demi sedikit..aku ingin jadikan Allah kekasik hakiki ku...

datang pula nasihat dari seorang sahabat yang kini amat aku kasihi..

'walau ,macam mana sekali pun kita sayangi seseorang itu..jangan sampai rasa kasih itu melebihi rasa kasih kita pada Allah s.w.t'

Ramadhan yang betul2 indah bagi ku..

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still not having any sweets...

Saturday, August 22, 2009

They Who I Terribly Miss~




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still no choc or candy...am now a glucose deprive nyu..

Ramadhan~

sitting quietly in the room reading a novel title ayat2 cinta...

istighfar panjang..

terasa sangat kekurangan diri...

ceteknya ilmu...

mari la kite mancari ilmu...

Selamat berpuasa...

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huhuhu...no choc..m on diet...

Thursday, August 20, 2009

What is it about life that is so hard~

I once posted what I think bout life...

My recent feeling bout life is it's weird and full of secrets...

and that what makes it a lil hard to handle..

Tyring to decipher very single secrets that has been set by God like a giant puzzle...

Your task is to put them together to get a picture that make sense to you...

Lately in life I just realize that are pieces of puzzle that I have put together wrongly...

In other words I try to force the puzzle to stick together...

and recently I realize it didn't work...

So I rearrange it back again and boy I manage to fit a few to get a clearer picture..

not all..but bits by bits...

God is Great...

I will try to work the puzzle till the day I die....

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p/s: I miss him the other day and had nestle tropicana and having fears that it will become a habit and a friend of mine is officially pregnant....hehehehe..

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Love~

Hangin out with a friend that is happily married..

I admitt..pretty envious..and to see them happy is simply blissfull...

It got me thinking bout love...

I mean in a broader prospect..

Love for God..

Love for parents..

Love for family..

Love for friends...

Love for a lover...

and there is only one conclusion that I can draw from the experiences I've been through...

You find love in unlikely places....

(^_^)

*my hand is smudge with cadbury almond*

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Newbie~

I am now officially in Penang..

It's been a week..

And this place rocks...

I admit there there are things that I'm glad i left behind..

And there are good memories i will never let go..

A new start and i am a newbie...

hehehe...

*enjoying chocolate cake*

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Home~

I'm at home...
God is so good to be at home..
Reunited with my long lost bro...(ok bunyi agak melodrama)..
Maybe this is the only thing I need right now...
Nothing else...
Semalam tengok mukhsin..
Jiwa aku tersentuh...
A quote I kept well imbedded in my heart...

'Love is kind,it'll always give us second chances'

I got mine...(^_^)...She was kind enough to forgive me..(^_^)..

And if u're reading this...Thank you...

And Thanks to Allah too....

For giving me what I have now...

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

mereka~






Deaths and Funeral~

Smlm ade sorg budak UIA meninggal..

Aku x kenal arwah..

Tapi lepas satu kematian, satu kematian..

Kalo nyawa aku yg ditarik...

Bersediakah aku??

Sedekah kan Al- Fatihah pada yang dah pergi...

Al-Fatihah....

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Life if weird and full of secrets~

When I was young I used to say “life’s not fair”..

When I was in high school I still think life is unfair..

When I was in uni years I started thinking that life is all about karma..

Life turns round like a giant wheel..

Like a giant cycle is more like it..

You get what I mean..

On top and down..on top and down again..

Tables can be turn anytime...

and now…I think life is weird and full of secrets..

But in a good way…

It's my final day as a lecturer here...

M gonna miss all of em...

Lets just hope this 7 months friendship will turn into a lifetime of relationship..(^_^)

And today, I so many reasons to be happy...

hehehe…enough with the weirdness..nak bubble gum ker candy???

Monday, July 27, 2009

Sapela aku....~

Sape la aku nk di banding kan dengan idola high school.....

Sunday, July 26, 2009

What I crave.....~

In this world...I crave for this only one thing...but I guess it doesn't matter anymore....Benda camtu da tak wujud kt dunia ni..........hmmmm...Tinggal bape hari kt USM...(n_n)

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Sigh~




I thought recollecting good memories will heal a person soul..Especially lonely souls....

But I kept dwelling on the past..The bad ones I mean....

My past is catching up on me again..

I thought I was rid of all that..

Boy, how was I wrong...

Why do I keep dwelling on the past when the only thing it does was bring tears to my eye?..

Last nyte...I cried without no apparent reason which is not healthy..

I couldn't bring myself to stop until I heard a lil voice inside my head...

It was him...he once told me...

'even the whole world ditched you, you still have me'

Then I stopped crying...

And fell asleep instantly.......

I hate remembering but I can't stand to forget........

Guess I just have to live with it...

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p/s: Jas, you're right...Long distance relationship suck big time...


*I miss him and ate nestle tropicana ice cream which was his favourite*

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Siput Babi~



*it'll look like a moving cotton candy on road..kete idamanku (drool..)*


Yer anda musti tertanya nape la idup budak yg sorg penuh dgn vocabulary babi..
hehehe...

xper la...nak wat camner.....

This happened sometime ago pas aku grad..

I got driving license on July last year at the age of 24 after the agony of repeating the driving test twice with all the fierce looking thick moustache creature from JPJ lalala Land...yer aku masih P lagi kini (pftt...yer pathetic I kno...at the age of 24..ok LOSER..)..

Pastu after I got my lisence I was called for worked in Kuantan...mengajar budak2 yg dulu nyer junior aku..huahuahua...(x berkembang sungguh dunia aku)...

So one day my junior name *syori (mmg name sebenar dan die bukan anak Jepun walaupun mate die sgt sepet) asked me out..she drove the car la of course..

Then later dah abis boring round kuantan I told her..'Akak takut la bawak kete ni amcm awak leh terrer ek?'

'Ala bawak jer, lame2 biase la tu..kak fairuz nak praktis..biar saye ajar akak' kata nyer..

Aku excited la ape lg..

So we brought the car to a housing area yang aman dan penuh dengan banglo...

After a few short lecture form syori bukan anak Jepun itu..the car switched driver..she let me drove the car round and round the housing area....

So I drove the car...syori guide me through the way and barking orders so that I have control of the car...later when I was good enough she let me drove the car all by myself..

Silence surrounded the car for a while...we stroll through the neighborhood...

Dalam ati aku berkata dgn riaknya..'x susah pun bawak kete ni, aku da terrer..yeay..q(^o^)p'

Tetibe syori panggil aku...'kak fairuz!!!........'

Dalam ati kau 'nak puji aku da terrer la tu'..hehehehe...

'ape die' aku jawab....

'agak2 la, kalo camni akak bawak kete SIPUT BABI pun bleh menang'

*scoff*

just when my confidence was soaring high..hehehe..

'kuang asam ko syori'....kiotrg pun gelak...

We drove back later on and layan citer dvd sampai tetido..

*syori - adala budak berumur 20 thn yang memandu seperti Ted Hamilton di jalan raya

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~Trivia~
depression has many masks..and one mask of depression is insomnia..dan aku insomnia..(cam haram)

*makan cotton candy..nyum2*

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

DEFINITION OF SEXY.....

IS THIS.......


PEOPLE LATELY GOING GUGU GAGA OVER DUHAMEL AND SHEA...

I'LL GO GUGU GAGA OVER THIS CREATURE....OOHHHH..KACAKNYER.......

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*ngah makan ice cream sambil menatap gambar tanpa berkelip*

Monday, July 20, 2009

hmmmm~

*aku bakal ibu mithali*


When I was a lilttle child I notice I picked up this habit of reading old magazines over and over again...It didn't stop there as it then leads to other things like reading instructions on old tin cans..on shampoo bottle...and books of course...especially books that I love....

I don't know whether it's a good habit or not..it's just when you read all over again the feeling is not as the same as when you read it for the 1st time....

I still remember one day my ma was doing some 'spring cleaning' at home...She brought all the old books that we brought back form the States...All of 'em were mine...and she asked me whether I still want em if not she would throw it away...and I said no way...Usually all this books we get it on Yard or Garage Sales as we don't have enough money to but a new one..*lagu tema bersamamu*

While going through all the books,I gotta admit my personal favorite was this one thick book that compiles all the fairy tales form Grimm brothers..Hans Christian Anderson and many more....

Who doesn't love fairy tales..What I love more bout the book is that all the fairy tales inside are very original, authentic, untouched....nothing is modified in the book..exactly the same like what the authors had wrote. Some fairy tales bring tears to your eye..like 'the lil match girl'..'The Little Mermaid' (kalo ikut citer btol mermaid mati ok..jadi buih laut)...and many more...Unlike the ones that disney produced that has been thoroughly modified to suit the audience desire to only see happy ending....

There were tons of tales in it and even tales that you never heard of....i can read this book over and over again and never grew tired of it...Very nostalgic...(T_T)

My dreams one day is that when I have kids...I wanna read this book before they go to bed....At least this fairy tales I'll read to them will teach them that life is not always all beds of roses...

lagi satu buku citer aku suker ade this one pop up story book..cool giler...sampai skang kalo bukak buku tu aku jakun....

Kalo korg nak bace buku ni...datang la umah aku...hehehehe...

Btw..if you wanna look for old books at cheap price....Pegi la 'Pay Less Bookstore'..now it's in OU...

*back in States while reading a book papa will always fixed me milk mixed with hershey's chocolate syrup...dap siyuuuuuuuutttttt......nyum..nyumm*

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Aerodynamic~

*bukan kapel sebenar*

Through out the month of July..Me and The Penyu's have done lot's of 'snake'ing around...
Well that's the only time of the month we kinda have break from the kids...Mereng kitorg dibuat nyer...(what do u expect, teaching a class full of genius..kanak2 pintar Malaysia plak tu.. sket2 tanya miss why this? why that?=P)

So one day when we were 'snake'ing around looking for a good place for lunch..While on the road..When we reach the traffic light and it turn red...(btw, the driver adalah tak len tak bukan penyu buncit)...watched a few motorbikes passed near the car...

I glanced outta window and noticed there were this young couple riding a motorbike..The girl was holding the guy extra tight...(sodap la laki tu..cam haram)

Sesi pertukaran dialog bersama penyu buncit seperti biasa....

penyu jelita: aku bukan la budak baik...tp dulu pakcik aku anta aku tuisyen..x payah peluk erat pun...stabil jer..

*penyu buncit follow the direction of my eye and instantly understood*

penyu buncit: entah2 diorg laki bini..

penyu jelita: na ah (sambil geleng kepala vigorously)..to young to even look like a couple...ni lagi kawen..

penyu buncit: ko tau x??

penyu jelita: x tau..pebenda??

penyu buncit: kalo nek motor yang due kene jadi satu..sebab tu kene peluk erat..lebih Aerodynamic..kurang sket rintangan angin nanti...

penyu jelita: *&&()(&%$$%)*#$@

Penyu cun and comel pun mengomel kata sumpah seranah pada penyu buncit...hahahahahahaha..

*sedang menikmati lollipop strawberry and cream chuppa chup*

Thursday, July 16, 2009

GET IT!!!!!


*don't be fool by this 4 letter scumbag*


Was watching Ugly Betty..

And there was something that she said caught my attention and caught me off guard too...

Dialogue was quoted when she was talking to Amanda her housemates or flatmates to be exact...

Embrace yourselves girls...Especially shopaholic...
(But then again shopaholic buy anything even if it's not on sale..heh??..)

''Amanda, buying stuff on sale doesn't mean you're saving''

And she aced it....Ain't this ugly duckling a genius or what..hehehe..

I might not be a devoted shopaholic but heh??..I think we all think that we're saving when we buy stuff on sale...

And girls, That's where we're wrong...*dreadfully frustrated*

hehehehehe..

Kate kate mu benar belaka wahai Betty yg huduh...

Muahahahahahahahaha...

*now, where did I put my toffee *

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

sedikit kasar..but hey..what the heck...~

*dari kiri: penyu buncit, penyu cun, penyu comel...penyu jelita amik gamba*

Aku and The Penyu's went out to celebrate the penyu buncit birthday in advance as each one of us were shower with tons of workload the day after...

Mula we planned for a movie nite out..x jadi..

A bowl nite out..x jd jugak..

So we decided to have dinner and lepak..

So we had our dinner at Black Canyon..

Suddenly penyu buncit was doing he's story telling on his good old days working in the zoo(siap mula cerita 'Pada suatu hari...*ok aku exaggerate *)..

So there was this exchanging dialogue session going on between me and him...

penyu buncit: weh, dulu aku keje kt zoo, ade babi hutan berjanggut..penuh bulu duh...

penyu jelita: muke die cam ko eh..(muke x bersalah)

penyu buncit: (muke x puas ati) pastu ade babi vietnam..muke cam ko..comel..name die bonnie..

penyu jelita: dasar babi nye penyu...

penyu cun dan comel hanya gelak sakan semasa pertukaran dialog berlaku...

Dammit, I'm gonna miss these penyus........seriously........isk..

and ooohhh...we later indulge ourselves with Baskin...(heavenly)...

Cukup gula sungguh..

*ngah makan choki2 (want some)*

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

sharing is caring???~

*now this, I can't resist...dap nyer..*



A few days back...

I had a loooooooong chat with a friend..

A very wise friend as she is a few years older than I am...

It was soo comforting and peaceful talking to her...

I never felt that way for quite a while now, as lately my life has been a little chaotic...

She ends the conversation with an advised that was later well glued in one part of my brain...

'Dalam hidup ni, tak semua orang leh kongsi kegembiraan dan kesusahan hidup kita selain dari ibubapa kita dan isyaAllah suami kita'

But I got to add...

'A true friend too...but not all are lucky to find a friend that's gonna stick with you all the time'

And I always wonder..

Why is it, a strangers knows you better than friends and family that you'd known for years...

nak makan KitKat la...

*jalan2 ke kedai cari KitKat*

Monday, July 13, 2009

PPMSI~

*makan lollipop ngan muke x berapa bengang*


Ok..

Bloghopping blog ni..Isu PPMSI..

Hopping cam bunny lagi to another blog...PPMSI lagi...

Aku senang kate la..

Mmg tak setuju..

Pastu dpt tau plak..

Nak mansuh sampai Matrik and Uni plak...

Kepala otak bapak die berjambul..

Aku paham perasaan kecewa Uncle Mahathir..

Aku pun kecewa..

Kalo nak explain panjang la plak kan..

Adehhh...

Aku x paham..Aku x paham..

X semestinya kite blaja Bahasa Inggeris kite lupa bahasa ibunda kite..

Kita x martabatkan bahasa ibunda kita...

Malaysia ni penuh dgn org yg pendek akal...

Camner nak maju kalo akal pendek...

I rest my case...

nak gi makan gule2...

*ngah cari lolipop*

Ok x puas ati lagi..

I might be the ignorant creature in the whole wide world..

But this is to much..

Till when we the Malaysian has to become victims over political clashes...

and by the way...

Menteri2 sebuk nak kempen martabat bahasa ibunda...

Padahal anak sendiri pun x reti cakap Melayu...

Poooodaaaahhhhchiiitt..

Ape kes???...

Cam haram...

Diorg gaduh sedap la...

Aku da tue takpe..

Nnti ape nak jadi dgn anak2 kite..

Nak anta anak aku International Skool la..

Pastu nak suh tuisyen mandarin...

*ngah enjoy chuppa chup ngan muke bengang*

Sunday, July 12, 2009

good things will come to an end...


Usually, everyday I wake up..

Go straight heading for shower..

But today...

I woke up..

Lingering on the bed a lil longer than usual....

Looking around the room..

Then smile...

I said to myself..

I'm gonna miss this place...

The life I've been through..

The people I've been with...

I was left with no choice but to leave 'em..

And to leave behind the life I've been living in for almost a year now..

The corner of my eyes well up with tears...

Good things do come to an end...

*depress cari candy x jumper*

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Berhak kah kita~

Ok, aku tak tau kenapa aku emo...

Must be that time of the month...

Ade la beberape insiden dalam kehidupan lepas yang membuat aku terfikir..

Lalu aku ingin bertanya pada semua...

Berhak kah kite menghakimi seseorang?...

Siapa kita nak label siapa baik siapa jahat?..

Siapa kita nak label orang siapa nak masuk neraka siapa nak masuk syurga?..

Siapa kita nak label org x bertudung jahat, org betudung baik?..

Siapa kita nak menjeling org lain dengan pandangan hina?..

SIAPA KITA??

BERHAKKAH KITA???

Bagi aku jawapan hanya satu...

Tidak berhak....

Yang berhak..hanya Yang Maha Esa...

Dan bagi sesiapa yang sedang menempuh ujian getir dalam hidup...

Banyakkan besabar...

" Hendaklah engkau bersabar, sedang kesabaranmu itu hanya kerana keredhaan Allah".


(An-Nahl:127)


Sabda nabi Muhammad s.a.w



"Bersabar terhadap hal-hal yang engkau tidak senang itu ada kebaikkannya yang banyak".

Dan kepada saudara2 ku yang lain..Jangan lalai..Jangan lupa sentiasa mengucapkan syukur atas apa yang kita ada..

Muhasabbah la diri..*and that goes to me to*

Renung2 kan dan selamat beramal..(^_^)

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

EMPTY~


Have u ever lost someone who's very dear to you..

Later in life ...No matter how many people made it into your life and out of it..

Over and over..

And as the cycle repeats itself..

There will always be a place inside your heart that feels empty..

Remains empty...

You feel hollow...

Guess that person you'd lost is irreplaceable...

Have you ever felt that way??

I have...

*Tears and I'm in no mood for candy*

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

adorable sungguh~

video


So this past few months my friend was showering me with stories of her anak buah..

I never met the lil gurl but I grew fond of the lil munchkin even though I never set eyes on her..

One day I told my friend..'t'ingin nak jumper miya tu'...

And today she gave me this video of the lil munchkin hoping that it will fulfill my longings to meet the adorable creature...

Alalalalala..chumel nyer...nari lagu beep tu (x leh blah)..

*oh while watching this notice there's a new rising rock star behind playing imaginary guitar using a badminton racket*

*eating lollipop while enjoying the video*

Tag pertama seumur idup aku~

Bloghopping around and I bump into this caffeine addict young lady and then I knew..darn it..I've been tagged...Sooooo..lets see.....

Rules
: use Google image to search the answers to the questions below. You must choose a picture from the first page of the results, and post it as your answer. After that tag 7 people.

*like her i didn't follow the rules....Maleh la...Some rules are meant to be broke kn?..HOHOHOHO..

(1) The age of my next birthday

  • due puluh enam taun

(2) Place (s) i'd like to travel to
  • Well I'd always love Greece (Land of the god and goddess)
  • Mecca of course...

(3) Favourite food
  • A well devoted Nasi Lemak lover..
(4) Favourite place
  • The beaches..(please watch the pronunciation, get it right sweetlings...)
  • Place that snows a lot..(nak wat snow angel and mr. snowman..)
(5) Nicknames i've had
  • badak
  • babad
  • tomato
  • bulat
  • bola
  • pumpkin
  • peroz
  • panda

(6) Favourite colour
  • Yellow..yellow and yellow..(silalah sakit mate)

(7) College major
  • Biotechnology
8) Name of my love
  • %$#^&&****&&^^%%%%%

(9) Hobby
  • Sleep..(am a sleepy head...hehehehehehe..)
(10) Bad habits
  • Sleep
(11) My wishlist
  • A Volkswagen car
  • An iPhone
  • A Beautiful Home
  • A beautiful family of my own (errr..does this count..)
(12) And i'm tagging..
  • cik knowlee
  • cik jas
  • cik rahah
  • cik mc la

Monday, July 6, 2009

Jantan kah aku??~


Semalam I was chillin' out with housemates...

Ngah borak2 tu camner ntah terkeluar plak topik care org berjalan...

Sronok la kitorg duk mengata care2 org berjalan..

Pastu aku ckp to one of my haousemate..

'oit cik milly (bkn name sebenar)..ko jln lengang..cmni'..she watch me imitate the way she walks..punggung dihayun ke kiri n kanan gracefully...

Muke geram seperti sudah dan tangan sudah form bentuk sepit sedia utk mencubit aku seperti ketam..

Gelak la housemate aku lagi sorg...

So I got carried away...gelak cam hantu...

Pastu my haousemate yg selalu dengki ngan aku mengeluarkan lagi statement of the year nye kepada aku...

'Amboi gelak sakan nampak, gelak2, dari ko tu jalan cam jantan'...

Tersedak aku...alamak..cam jantan..(-_-'')..

Ok..pasni aku kene praktis jalan with heavy books on my head with heels...

Baru leh jln cm model...

*chewing gum sambil selongkar almari cari buku berat*

Sunday, July 5, 2009

aku kaget...~


*bukan kasut sebenar*


Yer..aku ade mentioned to reduce the narcissism nature of the blog..
But I can't help it..

Nak citer gak...

So I had futsal games on Sunday and on Saturday morning my housemate was complaining and whining how my old pair of shoe looks like nothing but an old piece of junk..

Siap cakap sambil wat muke keji die..'cube sok time main futsal fairuz sepak tapak tercabut..malu nyer..'

'Fine2..let's get me a new pair of sport shoe'..aku berkata padanya (seb baik gak gaji da masuk time tu)..

Smpai kat kedai..I fell in love with a pair of Nike sport shoe..

Pastu ader la mamat salesguy ni entertain (chumel gak la *muke gatal*)..

'Pakai kasut saiz ape' die tanye..

'Ermm biase 4 @ 5' aku jawab..

Die pun g amik tp size 4 1/2..Then he let me try the pair...

'Amcm? Ok x?' die tanye.

'Ok jer..tp cm ader ruang lagi la'..

My housemates was sitting next to me observing and absorbing the whole scene..

Pastu mamat tu mengeluarkan statement of the year...

'Takper dik..biase kalo umur 15@16 tahun cm adik..kaki leh membesar lagi..ader ruang tu elok la'

Aku nganga..housmates aku da gelak golek2 la ape lagi..

Salah sorang housemate aku pun x leh blah mengeluarkan statement of the year die gak..die ckp ngan salesguy tu sambil menuding jari ke arah ku..

'dik, budak ni same umur ngan TV3'..

Budak tu nyer turn plak tepinga2 tengok aku x berkelip..

Pastu die pun berkata..'oooo, kire awet muda la ni'

lahanat..nak cover la tu...ntah2 dalam ati nak cakap aku bantut..

Goodness...I get that all the time..

Sometimes I wonder..konpius gak..whether to take it as a compliment ke x...

aku bantut....ish3..

*chewing gum with a frown on my forehead*

Thursday, July 2, 2009

have u??

*lagu background 'Pieces of Me' - Ashlee Simpson*



Have you?
Found someone who understands you better than anyone else..

Have you?
Found someone who is honest to you no matter how much the truth hurts..

Have you?
Found someone that holds your hand when you're about to fall..

Have you?
Found someone who can stand all of your childish tantrums..

Have you?
Found someone who wipe away your tears (even if tears are wasted over stupid and unworthy things)..

Have you?
Found some one always have faith in you even when you don't believe in yourself..

Have you?
Found someone who can finish every sentence that came out of your mouth..

Have you?

I have.....

*Oh..He even said that I'm predictable..I know..He's that good..damn him..*

*chewing candy with a dreamy face*

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Sape kate robot x sexy~


Last nyte...

Wearing a worn out sweater..
An oversize slipper....
I fell in love...
OH..OPTIMUS...
naper la ko sgt hot..
*drool*
ok i can't stop drooling..

ok where the f**k is my candy??

*mencari candy sambil collecting drool*

dammit....


Sunday, June 28, 2009

Today sucks...~

*kawan bg pinjam selipar ni sbb selipar aku basah pas basuh

today sucks coz.......
aku pg bute da terpijak taik kucing..

lahanat ko kucing...
xder tempat len ke nk berak...

bad mood

*teraba mencari bubblegum*

Friday, June 26, 2009

The man in my life~

When I was young...
I was on top of the world..
Everything was within reach..

When I was a teenager..
I screwed up big time..
Like there's no light at the end of the tunnel..
Sitting and wondering..
'Have i crushed my own dream and future'

Then there was a hand that encircle me in a very gentle embrace..
He whispered..'Papa tahu adik bleh buat'..
Tears streaming down my eye..

He held his hand for me..and guide me through the way..Never let go..ever..

'Happy Father's Day'..

Thursday, June 25, 2009

'Snake'ing

Me n colleague have found this new obsession..
Start out as something innocent..
Later we become addicted..
Things like this only happen when we get sooooo bored...
People here called it meng'ular'...
So when ever we wanna strike out for the activity..
We called it 'Snake'ing..
So that it wudn't sound so obvious..
Get it???
aku tau korg x paham..
xper la..
jnji aku n kawan ku bahagia...

*tetibe t'ingt komik sin chan ular gulung bentuk taik*

(can haram)

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Hiccups~

I was blog hopping..stop by at popia elektrik..
He was wondering nape pinggang die x brenti mengecik...

Reminds me of a story..

A few days back I was having severe hiccups..
I've tried everything...
Minum air la..
Tarik nafas dalam, thn sampai muke merah padam (cam haram)..
Golek2 atas lantai la (ok exagerrating)
Ade offer nk letak kapas atas dahi (kuang asam, ingt aku bayi gajah gamaknye)
Nothing worked..

Pastu salah seorang hausmate ku berkata..

'fairuz nk membesar lagi ek' (haram, nk kutuk aku pendek la tu)

seorang lagi mencelah tanpa segan silu...

'ah ah bukn membesar menegak, tapi melintang' (jahanam, keji aku gemuk la tu..hahahaha)..

ok...aku rase nk berjogging ptg ni...di atas katil mungkin....

hahaha....

*chew candy*

STRESSSSSS....aku nk bdn Maya Karin~

Monday, June 22, 2009

huahuahua~

story number 1

dulu ingt x kecik2 kite ade fail warna cekelat kiter kene isi..

ada satu ruangan tu kiter kene isi cite2 kiter..

ikut preference la....

cite2 normal yg slalu di isi..doktor..pensyarah..pramugari...

kawan ku bercerita...

'dulu aku ade kawan..die isi kt situ..pekerja kilang'

aku berkata 'heh?biar benor...nape die nk jd pekerja kilang?'

kawan aku ckp la...

'cikgu pun tny die nape die nk jadi pekerja kilang, budak tu jawab..'saye nk jd pekerja kilang sebab makcik sebelah umah pakai gelang smpai siku, die kerja kilang'

aku gelak terbahak2...

logik sgguh pemikiran budak itu...

pastu kawan aku cakap..cikgu suh die tukar...




story number 2

kawan ku bgtau...'anak buah aku nyer citer2 nk jd soldier'

tp semamlm kn die jatuh beskal..luka dalam kt tgn..

nk kene jahit..nangis x sudah.meraung2...

ayah die ckp la kt die 'kalo afif nk jadi soldier kene kuat, xleh takut'

anak die pun balas la...'kalo cmni afif xnk la jd soldier '

fleksibel sgguh budak ini..


huahuahuahua..

bdk2 zaman dulu n skang..ish3 *geleng kepala*

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Ape nak Jadi?????~

Was having a chit chat with colleague during lunch..
she was telling a story bout one of her anak buah..


One day,
her anak buah was looking at a cigarette box..
as we know all the cigarette box we find in stores today contains lurid and horrific pic of what will happen when u smoke

anak buah as always being an innocent curious kid he was..
he asked his father..

'ayah, ayah..nape kaki die macm tu?'

bapak pun menjawab..

'itu nak, jadi biler die kempunan x dpt isap rokok'

dan aku tergelak golek2...

ape nak jadi ngan bapak zaman sekarang!!!!!!

*chewing some candies sambil geleng kepala*

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Hello World~

DULU

aku tulis blog ngan niat jd my ‘public diary’ la konon..

nak channel everything there..HAPPINESS,FRUSTRATIONS etc etc etc..

KINI

i’ll still write bout myself..

but think of reducing the narcissism nature of the blog..

planning to write more bout facts..

i gotta start reading, shutting up my chewing candy mouth *wtf* and observe, start listening…

i once heard form sum1, to be a gud writer..

write wut u kno..

i wanna lead a more knowlegeable life and wit more wisdom..

SELAMENYER

xder bende kekal selama nyer…

*ketuk kepala sniri*

pehal aku ni…x ckup gule gamak nyer..

tinggi benor angan2

muahahahahaha

HELLO WORLD~

*teraba mencari gule2 getah*