Wednesday, July 29, 2009

mereka~






Deaths and Funeral~

Smlm ade sorg budak UIA meninggal..

Aku x kenal arwah..

Tapi lepas satu kematian, satu kematian..

Kalo nyawa aku yg ditarik...

Bersediakah aku??

Sedekah kan Al- Fatihah pada yang dah pergi...

Al-Fatihah....

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Life if weird and full of secrets~

When I was young I used to say “life’s not fair”..

When I was in high school I still think life is unfair..

When I was in uni years I started thinking that life is all about karma..

Life turns round like a giant wheel..

Like a giant cycle is more like it..

You get what I mean..

On top and down..on top and down again..

Tables can be turn anytime...

and now…I think life is weird and full of secrets..

But in a good way…

It's my final day as a lecturer here...

M gonna miss all of em...

Lets just hope this 7 months friendship will turn into a lifetime of relationship..(^_^)

And today, I so many reasons to be happy...

hehehe…enough with the weirdness..nak bubble gum ker candy???

Monday, July 27, 2009

Sapela aku....~

Sape la aku nk di banding kan dengan idola high school.....

Sunday, July 26, 2009

What I crave.....~

In this world...I crave for this only one thing...but I guess it doesn't matter anymore....Benda camtu da tak wujud kt dunia ni..........hmmmm...Tinggal bape hari kt USM...(n_n)

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Sigh~




I thought recollecting good memories will heal a person soul..Especially lonely souls....

But I kept dwelling on the past..The bad ones I mean....

My past is catching up on me again..

I thought I was rid of all that..

Boy, how was I wrong...

Why do I keep dwelling on the past when the only thing it does was bring tears to my eye?..

Last nyte...I cried without no apparent reason which is not healthy..

I couldn't bring myself to stop until I heard a lil voice inside my head...

It was him...he once told me...

'even the whole world ditched you, you still have me'

Then I stopped crying...

And fell asleep instantly.......

I hate remembering but I can't stand to forget........

Guess I just have to live with it...

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p/s: Jas, you're right...Long distance relationship suck big time...


*I miss him and ate nestle tropicana ice cream which was his favourite*

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Siput Babi~



*it'll look like a moving cotton candy on road..kete idamanku (drool..)*


Yer anda musti tertanya nape la idup budak yg sorg penuh dgn vocabulary babi..
hehehe...

xper la...nak wat camner.....

This happened sometime ago pas aku grad..

I got driving license on July last year at the age of 24 after the agony of repeating the driving test twice with all the fierce looking thick moustache creature from JPJ lalala Land...yer aku masih P lagi kini (pftt...yer pathetic I kno...at the age of 24..ok LOSER..)..

Pastu after I got my lisence I was called for worked in Kuantan...mengajar budak2 yg dulu nyer junior aku..huahuahua...(x berkembang sungguh dunia aku)...

So one day my junior name *syori (mmg name sebenar dan die bukan anak Jepun walaupun mate die sgt sepet) asked me out..she drove the car la of course..

Then later dah abis boring round kuantan I told her..'Akak takut la bawak kete ni amcm awak leh terrer ek?'

'Ala bawak jer, lame2 biase la tu..kak fairuz nak praktis..biar saye ajar akak' kata nyer..

Aku excited la ape lg..

So we brought the car to a housing area yang aman dan penuh dengan banglo...

After a few short lecture form syori bukan anak Jepun itu..the car switched driver..she let me drove the car round and round the housing area....

So I drove the car...syori guide me through the way and barking orders so that I have control of the car...later when I was good enough she let me drove the car all by myself..

Silence surrounded the car for a while...we stroll through the neighborhood...

Dalam ati aku berkata dgn riaknya..'x susah pun bawak kete ni, aku da terrer..yeay..q(^o^)p'

Tetibe syori panggil aku...'kak fairuz!!!........'

Dalam ati kau 'nak puji aku da terrer la tu'..hehehehe...

'ape die' aku jawab....

'agak2 la, kalo camni akak bawak kete SIPUT BABI pun bleh menang'

*scoff*

just when my confidence was soaring high..hehehe..

'kuang asam ko syori'....kiotrg pun gelak...

We drove back later on and layan citer dvd sampai tetido..

*syori - adala budak berumur 20 thn yang memandu seperti Ted Hamilton di jalan raya

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~Trivia~
depression has many masks..and one mask of depression is insomnia..dan aku insomnia..(cam haram)

*makan cotton candy..nyum2*

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

DEFINITION OF SEXY.....

IS THIS.......


PEOPLE LATELY GOING GUGU GAGA OVER DUHAMEL AND SHEA...

I'LL GO GUGU GAGA OVER THIS CREATURE....OOHHHH..KACAKNYER.......

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*ngah makan ice cream sambil menatap gambar tanpa berkelip*

Monday, July 20, 2009

hmmmm~

*aku bakal ibu mithali*


When I was a lilttle child I notice I picked up this habit of reading old magazines over and over again...It didn't stop there as it then leads to other things like reading instructions on old tin cans..on shampoo bottle...and books of course...especially books that I love....

I don't know whether it's a good habit or not..it's just when you read all over again the feeling is not as the same as when you read it for the 1st time....

I still remember one day my ma was doing some 'spring cleaning' at home...She brought all the old books that we brought back form the States...All of 'em were mine...and she asked me whether I still want em if not she would throw it away...and I said no way...Usually all this books we get it on Yard or Garage Sales as we don't have enough money to but a new one..*lagu tema bersamamu*

While going through all the books,I gotta admit my personal favorite was this one thick book that compiles all the fairy tales form Grimm brothers..Hans Christian Anderson and many more....

Who doesn't love fairy tales..What I love more bout the book is that all the fairy tales inside are very original, authentic, untouched....nothing is modified in the book..exactly the same like what the authors had wrote. Some fairy tales bring tears to your eye..like 'the lil match girl'..'The Little Mermaid' (kalo ikut citer btol mermaid mati ok..jadi buih laut)...and many more...Unlike the ones that disney produced that has been thoroughly modified to suit the audience desire to only see happy ending....

There were tons of tales in it and even tales that you never heard of....i can read this book over and over again and never grew tired of it...Very nostalgic...(T_T)

My dreams one day is that when I have kids...I wanna read this book before they go to bed....At least this fairy tales I'll read to them will teach them that life is not always all beds of roses...

lagi satu buku citer aku suker ade this one pop up story book..cool giler...sampai skang kalo bukak buku tu aku jakun....

Kalo korg nak bace buku ni...datang la umah aku...hehehehe...

Btw..if you wanna look for old books at cheap price....Pegi la 'Pay Less Bookstore'..now it's in OU...

*back in States while reading a book papa will always fixed me milk mixed with hershey's chocolate syrup...dap siyuuuuuuuutttttt......nyum..nyumm*

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Aerodynamic~

*bukan kapel sebenar*

Through out the month of July..Me and The Penyu's have done lot's of 'snake'ing around...
Well that's the only time of the month we kinda have break from the kids...Mereng kitorg dibuat nyer...(what do u expect, teaching a class full of genius..kanak2 pintar Malaysia plak tu.. sket2 tanya miss why this? why that?=P)

So one day when we were 'snake'ing around looking for a good place for lunch..While on the road..When we reach the traffic light and it turn red...(btw, the driver adalah tak len tak bukan penyu buncit)...watched a few motorbikes passed near the car...

I glanced outta window and noticed there were this young couple riding a motorbike..The girl was holding the guy extra tight...(sodap la laki tu..cam haram)

Sesi pertukaran dialog bersama penyu buncit seperti biasa....

penyu jelita: aku bukan la budak baik...tp dulu pakcik aku anta aku tuisyen..x payah peluk erat pun...stabil jer..

*penyu buncit follow the direction of my eye and instantly understood*

penyu buncit: entah2 diorg laki bini..

penyu jelita: na ah (sambil geleng kepala vigorously)..to young to even look like a couple...ni lagi kawen..

penyu buncit: ko tau x??

penyu jelita: x tau..pebenda??

penyu buncit: kalo nek motor yang due kene jadi satu..sebab tu kene peluk erat..lebih Aerodynamic..kurang sket rintangan angin nanti...

penyu jelita: *&&()(&%$$%)*#$@

Penyu cun and comel pun mengomel kata sumpah seranah pada penyu buncit...hahahahahahaha..

*sedang menikmati lollipop strawberry and cream chuppa chup*

Thursday, July 16, 2009

GET IT!!!!!


*don't be fool by this 4 letter scumbag*


Was watching Ugly Betty..

And there was something that she said caught my attention and caught me off guard too...

Dialogue was quoted when she was talking to Amanda her housemates or flatmates to be exact...

Embrace yourselves girls...Especially shopaholic...
(But then again shopaholic buy anything even if it's not on sale..heh??..)

''Amanda, buying stuff on sale doesn't mean you're saving''

And she aced it....Ain't this ugly duckling a genius or what..hehehe..

I might not be a devoted shopaholic but heh??..I think we all think that we're saving when we buy stuff on sale...

And girls, That's where we're wrong...*dreadfully frustrated*

hehehehehe..

Kate kate mu benar belaka wahai Betty yg huduh...

Muahahahahahahahaha...

*now, where did I put my toffee *

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

sedikit kasar..but hey..what the heck...~

*dari kiri: penyu buncit, penyu cun, penyu comel...penyu jelita amik gamba*

Aku and The Penyu's went out to celebrate the penyu buncit birthday in advance as each one of us were shower with tons of workload the day after...

Mula we planned for a movie nite out..x jadi..

A bowl nite out..x jd jugak..

So we decided to have dinner and lepak..

So we had our dinner at Black Canyon..

Suddenly penyu buncit was doing he's story telling on his good old days working in the zoo(siap mula cerita 'Pada suatu hari...*ok aku exaggerate *)..

So there was this exchanging dialogue session going on between me and him...

penyu buncit: weh, dulu aku keje kt zoo, ade babi hutan berjanggut..penuh bulu duh...

penyu jelita: muke die cam ko eh..(muke x bersalah)

penyu buncit: (muke x puas ati) pastu ade babi vietnam..muke cam ko..comel..name die bonnie..

penyu jelita: dasar babi nye penyu...

penyu cun dan comel hanya gelak sakan semasa pertukaran dialog berlaku...

Dammit, I'm gonna miss these penyus........seriously........isk..

and ooohhh...we later indulge ourselves with Baskin...(heavenly)...

Cukup gula sungguh..

*ngah makan choki2 (want some)*

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

sharing is caring???~

*now this, I can't resist...dap nyer..*



A few days back...

I had a loooooooong chat with a friend..

A very wise friend as she is a few years older than I am...

It was soo comforting and peaceful talking to her...

I never felt that way for quite a while now, as lately my life has been a little chaotic...

She ends the conversation with an advised that was later well glued in one part of my brain...

'Dalam hidup ni, tak semua orang leh kongsi kegembiraan dan kesusahan hidup kita selain dari ibubapa kita dan isyaAllah suami kita'

But I got to add...

'A true friend too...but not all are lucky to find a friend that's gonna stick with you all the time'

And I always wonder..

Why is it, a strangers knows you better than friends and family that you'd known for years...

nak makan KitKat la...

*jalan2 ke kedai cari KitKat*

Monday, July 13, 2009

PPMSI~

*makan lollipop ngan muke x berapa bengang*


Ok..

Bloghopping blog ni..Isu PPMSI..

Hopping cam bunny lagi to another blog...PPMSI lagi...

Aku senang kate la..

Mmg tak setuju..

Pastu dpt tau plak..

Nak mansuh sampai Matrik and Uni plak...

Kepala otak bapak die berjambul..

Aku paham perasaan kecewa Uncle Mahathir..

Aku pun kecewa..

Kalo nak explain panjang la plak kan..

Adehhh...

Aku x paham..Aku x paham..

X semestinya kite blaja Bahasa Inggeris kite lupa bahasa ibunda kite..

Kita x martabatkan bahasa ibunda kita...

Malaysia ni penuh dgn org yg pendek akal...

Camner nak maju kalo akal pendek...

I rest my case...

nak gi makan gule2...

*ngah cari lolipop*

Ok x puas ati lagi..

I might be the ignorant creature in the whole wide world..

But this is to much..

Till when we the Malaysian has to become victims over political clashes...

and by the way...

Menteri2 sebuk nak kempen martabat bahasa ibunda...

Padahal anak sendiri pun x reti cakap Melayu...

Poooodaaaahhhhchiiitt..

Ape kes???...

Cam haram...

Diorg gaduh sedap la...

Aku da tue takpe..

Nnti ape nak jadi dgn anak2 kite..

Nak anta anak aku International Skool la..

Pastu nak suh tuisyen mandarin...

*ngah enjoy chuppa chup ngan muke bengang*

Sunday, July 12, 2009

good things will come to an end...


Usually, everyday I wake up..

Go straight heading for shower..

But today...

I woke up..

Lingering on the bed a lil longer than usual....

Looking around the room..

Then smile...

I said to myself..

I'm gonna miss this place...

The life I've been through..

The people I've been with...

I was left with no choice but to leave 'em..

And to leave behind the life I've been living in for almost a year now..

The corner of my eyes well up with tears...

Good things do come to an end...

*depress cari candy x jumper*

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Berhak kah kita~

Ok, aku tak tau kenapa aku emo...

Must be that time of the month...

Ade la beberape insiden dalam kehidupan lepas yang membuat aku terfikir..

Lalu aku ingin bertanya pada semua...

Berhak kah kite menghakimi seseorang?...

Siapa kita nak label siapa baik siapa jahat?..

Siapa kita nak label orang siapa nak masuk neraka siapa nak masuk syurga?..

Siapa kita nak label org x bertudung jahat, org betudung baik?..

Siapa kita nak menjeling org lain dengan pandangan hina?..

SIAPA KITA??

BERHAKKAH KITA???

Bagi aku jawapan hanya satu...

Tidak berhak....

Yang berhak..hanya Yang Maha Esa...

Dan bagi sesiapa yang sedang menempuh ujian getir dalam hidup...

Banyakkan besabar...

" Hendaklah engkau bersabar, sedang kesabaranmu itu hanya kerana keredhaan Allah".


(An-Nahl:127)


Sabda nabi Muhammad s.a.w



"Bersabar terhadap hal-hal yang engkau tidak senang itu ada kebaikkannya yang banyak".

Dan kepada saudara2 ku yang lain..Jangan lalai..Jangan lupa sentiasa mengucapkan syukur atas apa yang kita ada..

Muhasabbah la diri..*and that goes to me to*

Renung2 kan dan selamat beramal..(^_^)

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

EMPTY~


Have u ever lost someone who's very dear to you..

Later in life ...No matter how many people made it into your life and out of it..

Over and over..

And as the cycle repeats itself..

There will always be a place inside your heart that feels empty..

Remains empty...

You feel hollow...

Guess that person you'd lost is irreplaceable...

Have you ever felt that way??

I have...

*Tears and I'm in no mood for candy*

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

adorable sungguh~

video


So this past few months my friend was showering me with stories of her anak buah..

I never met the lil gurl but I grew fond of the lil munchkin even though I never set eyes on her..

One day I told my friend..'t'ingin nak jumper miya tu'...

And today she gave me this video of the lil munchkin hoping that it will fulfill my longings to meet the adorable creature...

Alalalalala..chumel nyer...nari lagu beep tu (x leh blah)..

*oh while watching this notice there's a new rising rock star behind playing imaginary guitar using a badminton racket*

*eating lollipop while enjoying the video*

Tag pertama seumur idup aku~

Bloghopping around and I bump into this caffeine addict young lady and then I knew..darn it..I've been tagged...Sooooo..lets see.....

Rules
: use Google image to search the answers to the questions below. You must choose a picture from the first page of the results, and post it as your answer. After that tag 7 people.

*like her i didn't follow the rules....Maleh la...Some rules are meant to be broke kn?..HOHOHOHO..

(1) The age of my next birthday

  • due puluh enam taun

(2) Place (s) i'd like to travel to
  • Well I'd always love Greece (Land of the god and goddess)
  • Mecca of course...

(3) Favourite food
  • A well devoted Nasi Lemak lover..
(4) Favourite place
  • The beaches..(please watch the pronunciation, get it right sweetlings...)
  • Place that snows a lot..(nak wat snow angel and mr. snowman..)
(5) Nicknames i've had
  • badak
  • babad
  • tomato
  • bulat
  • bola
  • pumpkin
  • peroz
  • panda

(6) Favourite colour
  • Yellow..yellow and yellow..(silalah sakit mate)

(7) College major
  • Biotechnology
8) Name of my love
  • %$#^&&****&&^^%%%%%

(9) Hobby
  • Sleep..(am a sleepy head...hehehehehehe..)
(10) Bad habits
  • Sleep
(11) My wishlist
  • A Volkswagen car
  • An iPhone
  • A Beautiful Home
  • A beautiful family of my own (errr..does this count..)
(12) And i'm tagging..
  • cik knowlee
  • cik jas
  • cik rahah
  • cik mc la

Monday, July 6, 2009

Jantan kah aku??~


Semalam I was chillin' out with housemates...

Ngah borak2 tu camner ntah terkeluar plak topik care org berjalan...

Sronok la kitorg duk mengata care2 org berjalan..

Pastu aku ckp to one of my haousemate..

'oit cik milly (bkn name sebenar)..ko jln lengang..cmni'..she watch me imitate the way she walks..punggung dihayun ke kiri n kanan gracefully...

Muke geram seperti sudah dan tangan sudah form bentuk sepit sedia utk mencubit aku seperti ketam..

Gelak la housemate aku lagi sorg...

So I got carried away...gelak cam hantu...

Pastu my haousemate yg selalu dengki ngan aku mengeluarkan lagi statement of the year nye kepada aku...

'Amboi gelak sakan nampak, gelak2, dari ko tu jalan cam jantan'...

Tersedak aku...alamak..cam jantan..(-_-'')..

Ok..pasni aku kene praktis jalan with heavy books on my head with heels...

Baru leh jln cm model...

*chewing gum sambil selongkar almari cari buku berat*

Sunday, July 5, 2009

aku kaget...~


*bukan kasut sebenar*


Yer..aku ade mentioned to reduce the narcissism nature of the blog..
But I can't help it..

Nak citer gak...

So I had futsal games on Sunday and on Saturday morning my housemate was complaining and whining how my old pair of shoe looks like nothing but an old piece of junk..

Siap cakap sambil wat muke keji die..'cube sok time main futsal fairuz sepak tapak tercabut..malu nyer..'

'Fine2..let's get me a new pair of sport shoe'..aku berkata padanya (seb baik gak gaji da masuk time tu)..

Smpai kat kedai..I fell in love with a pair of Nike sport shoe..

Pastu ader la mamat salesguy ni entertain (chumel gak la *muke gatal*)..

'Pakai kasut saiz ape' die tanye..

'Ermm biase 4 @ 5' aku jawab..

Die pun g amik tp size 4 1/2..Then he let me try the pair...

'Amcm? Ok x?' die tanye.

'Ok jer..tp cm ader ruang lagi la'..

My housemates was sitting next to me observing and absorbing the whole scene..

Pastu mamat tu mengeluarkan statement of the year...

'Takper dik..biase kalo umur 15@16 tahun cm adik..kaki leh membesar lagi..ader ruang tu elok la'

Aku nganga..housmates aku da gelak golek2 la ape lagi..

Salah sorang housemate aku pun x leh blah mengeluarkan statement of the year die gak..die ckp ngan salesguy tu sambil menuding jari ke arah ku..

'dik, budak ni same umur ngan TV3'..

Budak tu nyer turn plak tepinga2 tengok aku x berkelip..

Pastu die pun berkata..'oooo, kire awet muda la ni'

lahanat..nak cover la tu...ntah2 dalam ati nak cakap aku bantut..

Goodness...I get that all the time..

Sometimes I wonder..konpius gak..whether to take it as a compliment ke x...

aku bantut....ish3..

*chewing gum with a frown on my forehead*

Thursday, July 2, 2009

have u??

*lagu background 'Pieces of Me' - Ashlee Simpson*



Have you?
Found someone who understands you better than anyone else..

Have you?
Found someone who is honest to you no matter how much the truth hurts..

Have you?
Found someone that holds your hand when you're about to fall..

Have you?
Found someone who can stand all of your childish tantrums..

Have you?
Found someone who wipe away your tears (even if tears are wasted over stupid and unworthy things)..

Have you?
Found some one always have faith in you even when you don't believe in yourself..

Have you?
Found someone who can finish every sentence that came out of your mouth..

Have you?

I have.....

*Oh..He even said that I'm predictable..I know..He's that good..damn him..*

*chewing candy with a dreamy face*