Have you ever fallen in love with someone you never laid eyes on? You still love them even the fact that they are no longer from this world. Well I have. Spending time with my grandma for a week made me learned a great deal about my long demise ayah su which I will never get the chance to see him, ever. He died at a very young age at 13, on the same year that my mother gotten married to my father. Every single evening I spent time with my grandma, I would make her tell me stories about him.
My grandma said these few incidence happened during the time that when my ayah su was about to leave this world. One night my ayah su sneaked out of the house. My grandma notice but she didn’t say a word. Simultaneously, to his disappearance my grandma also notice that on of her 50 ringgit note that she usually kept in a vase disappeared as well. The next morning my grandma noticed at the same vase where she kept her 50 ringgit note, there’s a balance in a total of 39.50 ringgit. The incidence happened a few times and only that particular moment my grandma was moved to asked my ayah su, she gently asked “Idi (my ayah sue given nicknames), Idi wat gapo dengan duit tu’ (Idi, what did you do with the money?) He innocently answered, ‘Idi guno duit to blanjo saing make mi rebuh’ (I used the money to treat my friends for mi rebus’. Then my grandma further added “kito ni buke ore senang di, mana boleh wat gitu slalu’ (Idi, we’re not that rich ourselves Idi, you can’t treat your friends all the time). He just kept quiet. The night later, he died because he had trouble breathing as he is an asthmatic child. He died in my grandma arm later that night.
When the villagers learned the news of my ayah su demised, many paid him a visit for the very last time ranging from his school teachers, friends (they purposely cut school so they could see my ayah su for the very last time) and many unknown stranger to my grandma including pakcik who sell me rebus. My grandma kindly thanked those who came and learned who these people in my ayah su’s life are. To the teachers he is a great and kind kid even though he could be a bit naughty. The teachers loved him dearly. And my grandma also came to learn that the money that he used to treat his friends, were not to treat just any mere friends, he purposely took the money to treat his friends who are poor as well as orphans. That story was shared by the pakcik who sell the mi rebus. He said the night before he passed away he has gather all his friends who are poor and orphans and treats them to mi rebus (21 in total, a mi rebus costs about 50 sen back then and that explains the 39.90 ringgit change in the vase). All the friends that he treats were that at the funeral mourning over a loss of a great friend. And other countless strangers that came to visit were the people that arwah had sincerely helped in someway during the time that he is still alive. A stranger also shared, there was also this incident that my ayah su purposely stole rambutans so that he could gave it away to those in need. He later got scolded for that ;P But was let go after that when the orchard owner comes to know about his innocent intention. In fact the pakcik packed more rambutans for him to be given away. =) I have always wondered how a young soul could be so thoughtful. I use to wonder how it would be like if he is still a live.
I never know him, but every single time after my prayer I would sedekah prayers for my ayah su as well. Eventhough I never met him, I love him very much and hope that one day I would get the chance to meet him in the other world. He thought me that love and good deeds knows no boundaries. He is not from this world but I come to love him dearly. When I see my grandma teared up talking about arwah, I always tell my grandma, ‘Akhirat nanti, da ade da orang nak tarik chek masuk syurga’ (Someone is already waiting to pull you into paradise when the judgement day appears). She would look up and gather her hands and say Alhamdulillah. I learn a great deal form my ayah su and I wish I could inherit some of his character, or maybe even my kids. To my Ayah su- Al-Fatihah =)