Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Anger~


I have no idea on how to put the things that I am mad about into words..I really have no idea. But I've been holding this in for so long a I feel the need to voice this out.I am truly am mad and pissed. How many times have I told my dear readers to never ever judge a person. I've told you so so many times not to do this. We are mere human and we don't know everything as the rightful one to judge is Allah alone as He is the Almighty and only He alone knows what is hidden, past and future. So why do I still see people doing exactly that?

When it comes to and issue of discussing a women's aurah *amboi bukan kemain la (sinsing lengan baju)*..

I truly understand the good intentions of the person when they brought up the issue..I respected those who has brought up the issue and discussing it in a respectable and kind manner. I wish to thank you for that. For every single advice, noted and we will do our best to observe and improve whatever we need to improve InsyaAllah.

But what I am here to discuss is about this one group of people who irks me and makes my hair stand on its end due to anger. Anger is the feeling I truly hate but I can't help to express it due to the existence of these kind of people.

Tell me whether your way of spreading dakwah is truly the right way?

1) You collected women pictures from the internet, facebook, twitter and any other social sites and I bet you didn't get their permission in the first place anyway.

2) You blurred certain parts of their faces for the sake trying to protect these women from shame (aib).Konon2 la.You already violated their rights in the first place by taking their pictures without any permission.

3) You dared to label the way their tudung with discouraging names.*kalau la aku ni x pakai lagi tudung, aku pun xnank pkai tudung tgk post2 ni*


4) And for every word that they wrote/utter, I can feel that they feel no shame doing it and even feel prouder and arrogant by thinking that you did the right thing.

Well I can tell you one thing hunny, be prepare to testify when you stand before Him in akhirah as you have opened someone's aib and Allah the Almighty and Just will be fully prepared to expose your aib in return.

We should say Alhamdulillah when we see our fellow sisters has taken a big step to cover they're aurah. Be it even if it begins by starting wearing longer pants or more appropriate clothes.

Be it if she start wearing shawls to cover only a part of the hair. Every single thing in life has it's own beginning.Every single thing matters. So why belittle their effort.

When someone has decided to do so, give her time to adapt, when after sometime only then you go up to her to present to her on what is more afdal.

Rather thank labelling a tudung with names like alien, bukit la, nasi lemak la..It's very discouraging and these are the things that discourages our fellow sisters to become a better muslimah.

When a fellow sister is taking that big step in changing into better, we should make them feel more welcome not otherwise.

This is taken from Our beloved sister Wardina status.Welcoming a sister that decided to wear hijab for the very first time =)

I am welcoming our new sister who dared to make the change and put on her Hijab! Sis Aiza... My dua's are with you. Inilah dia sister yg 'dipertikaikan' tempoh hari sewaktu saya paste gambar majlis dan kebetulan ternampak dia dan seorang rakan yang belum memakai hijab. And she did! Thats why I say, "never judge!" Her tweet: "meeting u & e ladies @ YMP OC was life changing" She attended the Open Circle with Young Muslims Project and me :)

I am so happy. It's to Allah we say Alhamdulillah, because everything happens only with His will, and it is He who touches our hearts! Kepada semua di luar sana, jangan berhenti memberi inspirasi. Teringat kata Imam Suhaib Webb, "manusia yg paling baik adalah mereka yang memberi inspirasi untuk melakukan kebaikan" Kenapa Muh Ali dikatakan Muslim yg paling berpanguruh? Kerana dia "inspire people",kerana dia "memberi inspirasi" Tidak! Tidak perlu jadi Ustaz atau Ustazah atau ilmuwan terbilang. Mari berikan Sis Aiza kata perangsang dan sokongan! Moga Hijab kita di kepala juga di hati dengan solat yang konsisten, merendahkan diri dihadapan Illahi... LOVE being a Muslim to the Max! - GAMBAR terpaksa didelete kerana KOMEN TIDAK menyenangkan dari sesetangah dari kita...**orang nak buat baik boleh bagi galakkan tak????Manalah orng tak lari dari Islam kalau komen sangat tidak membantu?

Emphasizing/highlighting some key words 'Never Judge'.

We should be more positive rather than negative. If I have the time I will provide a few links that pisses me off.

Lets make a change. Let me share one of my habits, I like looking and browsing thru videos of talks, discussion that has been posted in facebook but what usually turn me off , are these pendakwah2 who uses harsh words. I know for some people they don't mind but I don't favour these things that much as I have always believe that Allah loves pretty things and pretty words.So sometimes we should consider the words that we utter. Even our beloved Prophet Rasullullah saw (pbuh) are also known for his good akhlaq and kind words. =)

And before I end let me share a dua with you:

Ya Allah, jadikanlah aku lebih baik daripada apa yang mereka sangka dan janganlah di ambil kira dengan apa mereka kata terhadapku, dan ampunkan apa yang mereka tidak tahu.

Ya Allah, please make me better than what they expected of me and never to pay attention or care on their words about me and forgive them for things they don't know.

May Allah protect my fellow brother and sister.

Please take note that even I am struggling to be a better Muslim each day and even you. So why not support one another. Stop the negativity.

Remember, even that small steps matter, so hold the hand and guide them trough the way.

Ok da x marah da. But please please take note.

*ok now you guys are allowed to go and eat candy =)*








Friday, December 9, 2011

Dear Men


Dear Men,

Do you know what I admire most about you guys?
The friendship/relationship among you guys are amazing.You don't keep things in heart.You guys have nothing to hide.

You settled everything over a fist and resume your friendship as if nothing happens.

You guys easily forgive and forget.

I like that about you men.

Yours truly,
Me who wishes myself (and girls) to be more forgiving and forgetful.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

We teach life, sir~


First tears welled up the corners of my eyes,

But after listening to this over and over again,

I cried

It's amazing how an individual can grow so strong despite the traumatic past she's been through..

listens to her words carefully..Here are some of the highlights that aches my heart..

'i wish i coud wail over their body, i wish i could run barefoot to every refugee and hold every child cover their ears so they wouldn't have to hear the sound of bombing for the rest of their lives the way i do'.

'no matter how good my English gets, no sound-bite , no sound-bite , no sound-bite , no sound-bite will bring them back to life, no sound-bite , will fix this, we teach life , sir we teach life , sir, we -palestinians- wake up every morning to teach rest of the world life , sir' . ..outstanding n spellbinding..I am captivated by this woman~ *nak nangis rase*..take ur time to listen to this~

Back in States I remember being placed in the same class with a lovely Bosnian girl. Back then I never understood why she always cries and ducked under the desk everytime she hears a loud thud..Being kids I remember people make fun of her..I didn't instead I felt sorry for her.We went to the same English class together and I still remember how her beautiful hazel eyes were always welled up with tears..As I gradually grow older I, gradually understood and finally understand the thing she went through and why she acted the way she did..I never see her again after I left States..isk~

May Allah bless her soul and protect her no matter she goes.

*td da mkn MARS =) *

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Kill me~

*bwahahahaha..one of my fav comic strips - Clavin and Hobbes*

Ok people..I know, I know *hand gesture to calm you down*..as much I hated when my favourite blogger goes hiatus..I bet you guys despise me for the same reason too (ok agak bajet glamour and ramai follower ; p )..Go ahead, kill me..*eh bro ngan kayu besbol tu, agak la..jgn bunuh betol2..nnti masuk jel...cool2..hehehe*

Things has been pretty dormant due to various factors (errrr, nk kene explain ke faktor2 itu? *muke inesen*), But hey, I did tell you didn't I, am not gonna post as much as I usually does but I'll try my best..But even now I doubt that people visited this old rusty blog anymore..

The fault was all mine, I'll take full responsibility ..I've seen people who writes and just simply stopped writing..I mean like really stopped..huhu..its a sad sad thing~~

I have always love writing, even though I might not be the best in the world..but at least I tried my best to never ever stop or give up something that I love and enjoy doing..

I promise to always write, write and write..it might not be for others to read but the things documented here are for myself too..

You know one day if I married and I have a husband and kids..

I will bully my husband into writing journals..about him, about what happens in his daily life.

I would also give my kids journals too..each one of em..something for them to write or rant on..they can like write anything be it random, something that they are despised with, boys, girls, crushes, bitches favourite quotes, bad hair day..=) whatever...whether they choose to write or not, it's entirely up to em..I won't force them into something they don't like doing..I'll still love em with all my heart <3

This is because since I was young, when I went through the toughest moments in life, writing is one thing that kept me sane..And I believe the world that my kids are going to live in is about to get even more vicious and cruel and I want my kids to somehow have some sort of an escapism..like I did in writing...=)

As for my husband, I bet you'll guys would wonder, why on earth would I want to bully my husband into writing? I'll bully him into writing even if it means to write down a word to explain his day..ONE word is suffice enough for me..

Well of course I am to write in my very own journals too..Fair and segiempat (square) ~

I believe in life you'll never know who is going to leave you first, but if that day comes where my other half were to part with me, besides than my memories of him that is deeply etched and engrave in that one corner of my mind, at least I have that trace of existence with and just in case I miss him, I would read the things that he wrote over and over again =)

I hope that this won't remain as dreams.Those time are yet to come but I have my plans and somehow hope that it'll be plausible to be excuted..InsyaAllah..

Initially I wanted to change the layout of the blog..but then again I leave it as it is because I am still me and I looove sweet stuff..that is one thing that wouldn't change..

I had my dosage of sweetness today! Have you?

See you guys soon =)

p/s: I do envy those who can tell stories through amazing photos and pictures, these people takes story telling to a whole new dimension and level..since aku x pandai hambek gamba..tulis jer la ;P

Monday, November 14, 2011

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Indulge ppl..btw lame ek x update..maafkan saya...go grab a snickers okeh!!~

Sunday, October 2, 2011

(-_-'')

For every words I utter that portrays my stupidity and insensitivity..

Forgive as please believe me I really never meant it that way..

My heart goes out to you..

Forgive me again..

Spreading love and trying to help as much as I can in my own way~

*I guess this is also one of the main factor why I was never popular back in my high schools and uni days..(-_-'')*

*don't forget to get your dosage of sweets today my gula2 ati*

Sunday, August 21, 2011

I beg your forgiveness~

I may not be the holiest girl to tell you what is right and what is wrong.
I am merely a weak human who sometimes can't help it but to make mistakes.
I hurt heart and souls in the past.
I commit things that I that I am not very proud off.

I may never be the holiest person, but I can assure that I am moving towards the right direction (May Allah protect me from straying away from the righteous path)
For every mistakes and sins I commit, I am determine to fix and repent on it.
For the heart and souls I've hurt, I have already ask for your forgiveness.
And I wish that from to day onwards, I want to be someone that even I can be proud off.

And Ya Allah, being humbled and ashamed, I beg for your forgiveness and I want to convey my deepest gratitude to be able to enjoy this years Ramadhan. You have befalls upon all the obstacles but have I not even once fret as I know that it's Your way to love and reminds me to change for the better.And again, and again, for any misdeeds and sins I commit, I beg for your forgiveness Ya Allah~

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Asian Kung fu Generation~


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This one of the songs that I listened to whenever I feel stressed..a song that reminds me of the good ol day...enjoy~

Friday, June 24, 2011

King of anything~


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Enjoy..I love this talented girl..Sarah Bareilles..Enjoy~

Friday, June 17, 2011

Old~

Hey there, it's been a while isn't it..

Like holy s**t man..We're like midway thru the year already..so many things has happened and many more things are coming up..Like my bro's coming back from Russia (he's in his final year already), my sis got a scholarship to do her medical degree but first she has to enrolled to a foundation programme beforehand which will happen this Monday (following right behind his brother's footstep)..and yes people..wedding bells..my sis is getting married..yeayyyy!!!!...God I miss home..I'll be heading there soon I-Allah..I no longer feel young..it's not that I am old (well i am old actually..haha)..but i feel different..when i hear the news that my sister is getting married, i almost shed tears of joy...Well if you asked me..not just yet..i just want stay like this for a while..even if my ma n pa kinda like nagging saying that it's about time to settle down..i''ll be a liar if i say i don't wanna get married..common its every girls dream, but i think i'm not ready to settle down just yet before i settle whatever my singlehood life requires me to settle..there's so many thing i still wanna explore and i prefer doing this while i am still single..not getting any restraining order from anyone..heheh..

it makes me smile thinking that when i look at my face in the mirror and realize that my pimple scars don't always disappear immediately like it always does in the past..I have to rely on something to make it happen..it makes me feel old but it makes me smile..i don't mind getting old..all i know i wanna age gracefully..but it feels good when someone asked me my age and when i gave the the answer, they wouldn't believe me and tells me i look like an eighteen year old..imagine that..hehehe..i am enjoying life..i have no regrets..the things i let go in the past..i felt glad letting it go cause it not worth to hold on too..so far so good..for someone my age i pretty much have experience almost everything that life has to offer..=)

you do wish that someday, u hoped that things would fall into the right place, magical or miracle things would happen..Well as i grow old, i realize, things will fall into the right places, everything suddenly make sense, like puzzles everything seems to fits well compatible to one another..magical things, miraculous things do happen..fairy tales do come true...but i also understand, in order for these things to happen, you have to work hard for it, sacrifices has to be made..some will get hurt (even you yourself)..but in the end...you'll see things the way i see it now..complaints are not meant to be made audible or documented, instead count ur blessings and record ur happiness and gratitude..

Newton might discover gravity while sitting down doing nothing when an apple fell down from a tree..but he wouldn't really discover gravity if it weren't for that brain of his working out the curiosity over a fallen apple..well Benjamin did get hurt when he discover electricity (and this guy got his face printed on 100 American dollar bill...abis famous da org tue nie)..Edison makes magical thing happen when he invented the phonograph despite the fact that he has hearing problem due to scarlet fever..oh, edison is also famous for inventing the light bulb..hehe..

have fun peeps..it'll do you lots of good!!..=)

bear in mind magical things happens and miracles can happen to anyone!! =)

please also bear in mind, working hard not only to obatained whatever it is that you want to obtain, you also have to work hard in maintaining what you have obtained ;P

have u had u dose of sugar today..i know i have..buhbye!!!~

love u folks!!!~


Sunday, April 10, 2011

The white tiger cub~

During the darkest moment of my life Fauzan Ahmad told me 'Peroz, kadang- kadang dalam hidup kita Allah ambil sesuatu dari kita adalah kerana kita terlalu bergantung harap pada benda itu dan kita ada sedikit memalingkan diri dari Allah, jadi dia ambil itu dari kita kerana dia mahu kita bergantung harap pada Dia kerana hanya pada Dia yang Maha Agung tempat kita bergantung harap'..Terima kasih teman untuk nasihat ini yang akan ku bawa sehingga ajal dtg menjemput..

I remembered words utter by Kartina Aziz in the film Cun, 'Kalau ada Cinta dalam hati kita, maksudnya Allah ada dalam diri kita'..Cinta itu indah dan Allah suka benda2 indah! =)

I the type who don't dream..Dreams are very rare, like diamonds..Very Alien to me.I really just don't dream that much..Years back I've have always sincere pray to Allah,

'If the men existed in my life , if any of them are meant for me, bring him close to me and if not, i'll pray for their happiness and may you grant them Your blessings'..

Never in my life have I prayed so sincerely before.

So one night, I dreamt of this lil white tiger cub, and in that dream it was my most prize possession but something has happen which forced me to gave it away, and after a while I came back to take it back, the lil white tiger cub doesn't recognize me anymore, it even tried to scratch me, clawed me and even bit me. I was so devastated, I cried so hard only to realize that when I woke up tears was streaming down and I was panting so hard and that has never happened to me before..I was surprise and and the aftermath has caused my heart to hurt so bad as if I really had lost the cub..everything felt so real..(T_T)

And because of the dream, it gave me to courage for me to confide to a guy that I really like him.

But in life, things doesn't always goes as you planned.We parted ways. It tore both of us apart. But life has to go on.

After a year I realized I got the whole thing all wrong, When I was soo confident that iIhad it all figured out.I was actually wrong.

I thought the rare white tiger cub was him, I thought it represents a man's presence in my life, but i realize that the lil white tiger cub represents love..

My love for a man a human being and also my love towards Allah s.w.t..

When it turn my back from Allah, even He never leave me, but the path that I had chosen will bring me farther away form Him..

I once heard there was this of this saying, 'A step you take towards Allah, Allah will take a thousand steps towards you.'

He took away my most prize possession but I get Him back in return. He took me away the things I love most is also because He want to teach the felling of losing something , helpless and hurt, I will always have Him to turn too. If I continue to turn my back on Him I will loose Him forever like I lost that lil white tiger cub in my dream.

I am far from being a perfect servant to Him but I will always bear in mind even if I have loose everything in life, lost in any battle, how life beats the life out of me leaving me severely damage and irreparable , He will always be there for me..always there to show me His love and compassion..~

No matter if there is a reservoir/pool of sadness in your deepast darket corner of your heart, always know that it won't remain there as Allah will evaporate it just as long as you look for Him.

It's been a while since I last wrote..but i feel good writing this one down.

I will not post as much as I use too but I'll try okies.

Take care everyone~

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Mistakes are something that you can never be proud of, regret consequently follows after each and every one of it, but never stops you from becoming a better person. Second chances rarely comes, but granted to those who deserves it (Me, 2010)~

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Misunderstood affection~

*zaman2 rebellious saya*

How we human are individually unique not only down to the bones but further narrowed to our genetic make up..

And the genetic codes that were expressed varied greatly in individual..that explains why people have brown eyes, blue, single and doubled lid eye, straight, not so straight hair, Maggie curl..hehe

And I would pretty much relate it to the significant difference in an individual on how affections are expressed..

We all have our own way on how we show someone how we truly care for one another. But for some people, the way the convey their affection, often misunderstood by others..

Parents usually falls into the category..their affection are usually misunderstood..

We children usually misunderstand them, esp when we were young, hot blooded and where temper always gives way to insanity and blur our judgement which further leads us to the world of irrationality.

Like me, I use to stupid..I use to hate my parents for being so fierce, rigid and scary.

My ma like she always says, everytime she sees me, ‘anak mama yg sorang ni, lahir senang, nak jaga susah’.

I was a problematic child.

The rumour circulate around my birth that I was supposed to be a boy and my dad had already set to put Muhammad Fairuz for my name and when my may deliver me, a girl, Muhammad was replaced by Siti..(ok xder kene mengene)

I hated my parents for wish to have someone elses parents are mind..or even wishing they were someone else.

Do you know that research by some researcher n the Sates discovered, almost 80% of teenagers wish that they parents were someone else..or wishing they had someone else’s parents.

So I guess I was normal to have gone through the deepest darkest and most rebellious days of my life.

But as I grew up I now understand it just the way my parents show their affection and it varies greatly among different families.

Nobody’s perfect right, even our parents. I might not be the luckiest girl to have a fun set of parents, but I was greatful that they brought me up the way they did because if not I wouldn’t be the person that I am today.

The fierceness, rigidity is their way of showing affection and how I wish I would be more to obliged my parents in the past, be more kinder to them making it easy. I regret for all tears that I made my mother shed for me. But I do promise that I’ll be a better daughter for my parents. Always to let them know that I love them and thanked them for bringing me up the way that did.

Tell the ones you love that you love them before it’s to late.

Because when you love someone it’s natural that you tell them.

Have a nice! =)

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Jar of Hearts -Christina Perri

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most
I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are
I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms
And I've learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are
Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Some lessons that I learned in life, I had to learned it the hard way but that doesn't make me feel any less lucky..It might be hard, difficult and painful, leaving scars all over, but scars is a form of imperfect beauty and sexy too.So be proud! (Me, 2011)~

Saturday, March 5, 2011

There is nothing mechanical when it comes to love, Love is spontaneous and it comes naturally (Me, 2011).

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Love~


Falling in love to a song is pretty much similar when you fall in love to person, it capture your attention at the first key of the melody, took your breath away with it's lyric and not listening to it makes you miss it so much even you just finished listening to it a few seconds ago..A lot like love huh? (Me, 2011).

When I die young by the Band Perry is my new Obsession~

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
oh oh oh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I’ll shine down on my mother
She'll know I’m safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

And I’ll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom
I’m as green as the ring on my little cold finger
I’ve never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand
There’s a boy here in town says he’ll love me forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no I’ll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I’m a goner
And maybe then you’ll hear the words I been singin’
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin’

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
oh oh


The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep ‘em in your pocket
Save them for a time when your really gonna need 'em oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls

*Teary eyed*

Sunday, February 20, 2011

I don't know what is it with you youngster in wanting to document your every thoughts in facebook but be a lil more selective because not all are diamonds as some thoughts are best left unpublished or make it inaudible (unreadable) - (Me, 2011)~

Friday, February 18, 2011

I was once asked by someone 'So tell me, what have you learned from your previous r/ship?' I answered 'There are some man who finds self sufficient (indepedent) woman unfavourble because it'll make him appear less heroic. They like to play superhero saving the damsel in distress' *giggle* - (Me, 2011)

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Magesh~

I once read this somewhere,

'The origin of wealth is the mind and not the money'

When was the last time you feel inspired? Well if you asked me? I would say tonight..=)

Magesh, a beautiful Indian name belongs to a beautiful Indian girl..

Always bumped into her at the corridor of the hostel the most words exchange between us was..

'Hey,How are you.. '

Only tonight my friends and I had the chance to engage into a loooong conversation with this lovely lady..

I've never met anyone who is so focus in life before..someone with a definite goal. .someone who is so sure of what she wants and full of passion..

(Well actually, I am surrounded with a several strong independent ladies in my life who are not scared to brave the world and embrace the uncertainty of the future..Like Sri (I call her Meh and in Looe, UK), Ati (budak kecik bijak, workaholic), Iati (my rummie, workaholic n kaki bisnes)..)

But then again, when you have a goal in life, nothing is uncertain..

Which made me think and made me feel the need to really restructure my goals on life..What is it that I want to achieve in life..to rekindle the spirits and passions that are loss..

Magesh, from what I've learned from her stories, gave up her job, her savings to further her studies..

And said to us 'Malu la nk mintak duit form your parents sebab kita da besar'

And she doesn't simply settled for anything less..

Believing that learning new things in life won't stop her track in fact will take her far and wide..

A hard working girl who would spent six months finishing a book to grasp the real meaning of research.

A girl who would unselfishly spent all of her money to attend conferences, greedy to gain knowledge and to build a network so in the future, she won't have to be clumsy or panic when she'll further her studies in PhD ... always a step ahead of the game in planning her future..and there were also time that she attended a conference without no apparent reason and all that she wanted to do was learn..gain, gain n gain..

The world was like a huge classroom for her...believe that learning a constant process and there's no definite end to it..

Money has never been the problem for her as she has constantly chanted in mind that it is attainable

taking up odd jobs at Dome, tutoring kids even if it means she has to travel an hour and half by bus to get to the destination..

She taught me the true meaning of the phrase 'You are in control of your money'..

And She is in Love with her research..

I am inspired...

I feel ashamed having to admit how shallow I was, cause a few moment before we had this long chat with Magesh, I still think that money is important in life when it's actually not..it's not everything..how many of us stop dead in our track in gaining knowledge by giving financial constrain as an excuse..

But that's gonna change this instant..

I hope you would change that too..and please please please..find the things that you love to do..because when you're in love and talked about the things that you're in love with..You sparkled..Like diamond..And I would love to see EVERYONE sparkle..And Magesh was like this lovely diamond that I discover that shines brightly and can't help to feel affected by the shine..

Go ahead, brave the world...Cause I am about to gather all the pieces of courage in me so that I can also brave the world and be fearless!!..

are you with me..if you are..Come on..Let's walk with me hand in hand..=)

If you feel tired a long the way, we can always stop for some hot choc and move on when energies are restored..hehe..

Jom!~

For a start, asked yourself, how far would you go in order for you to achieve your dream!!~

Thursday, February 10, 2011

A little serious~

I guess it's true what they say, in order to be a good writer, instead of using your head, don't forget to guide it with your heart, with a sound mind and be transparent (truthful), by being vulnerable, the reader will somehow get what are you trying to convey and portray.Some would even cursed to give a masterpiece a more dramatic effect, but hey, different people have different style of writing and different drama sense (Me, 2011).

Was taken aback by a blogger style of writing..a genius but I find some of his piece are pretty disturbing (In a good kinda way..hehe)~

That's all for now..C ya guys later..lets go get some sweets!!~

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Jgn jadi Simon Cowell Malaysia~


Being young you can't help it to be judgmental and shallow..Back then I was shallow and judgmental giving some unpleasant/jengkel remarks..

For instance..

'Pergh, seksi siot minah tu..mak die x ajar ape2 ker..'

'pergh, bro tu tindik telinga..siap ade tatoo..Melayu, Islam plak tu..'

But as I grew older, In a way, not in a the position to praise myself, so don't get me wrong =P..I grew wiser, trying to see things from a different perspective..You probably asked me how much wiser have I become..but let me teach you on how to look at things differently and respect them for who they are...as bad as they seem..like I told over and over again..is not our righteous place to punish people. As the right to punish this humble servant belongs to Allah alone.

Sometimes we have to remember that for some people, they are not as lucky we are..being granted adequate knowledge..When I was young parents knew somehow there are some Islamic knowledge they weren't able to convey, they sent me and my sis to religious school and when we stopped going due to the lack of religious school at that articular area we moved in, my parents would hired a religious teacher to teach us what we needed to know..Enough knowledge for me and my siblings to carry on in the future..

For me and my sibling we had our fair share of blessing from Allah.

But as I grew older, meet a lot of people.I talked to them and get to know the differences (and respect it) and among these individual that I bumped into I realize, not everyone were born to be a queen bee.Furthermore, we have to remember, there are many reasons for some people act the way they are.

For some individual, the path they have gone through are very patchy..For instance, having ignorant parents who don't bother to teach what they need to know..or some have been spoiled beyond repair (which lead to to lead a limitless and boundless life)...some just live in the community that don't provide these kinda knowledge, lacking in qualified religious teachers and in the end suppresses their ability to learn all the essential knowledge that God has made it compulsory to learn for every Muslim.

And due to the above, results in breeding of ignorance in the heart of a certain individual. Don' t get disheartened by the story as there are individual that Ive see had undergone some amazing transformation, some are just dramatic and unbelievable, and they are even better than we are.One of the biggest factors that lead to the phenomenal transformation is because they are blessed to have amazing friends who never discriminate them and taught them what they needed to know...Some people have to be an ugly caterpillar before transforming into a lovely butterfly..

with this people, isolation and discrimination won't do them any good..

Just be friends with everyone and get to know the history of their life that had been deeply etched in their souls..but one souls won't forever the way they are because I believe one's souls are like Play-Doh or clay, It can be molded into any shape..a better and prettier shape.

So let's just be friends with everyone and if you so happened to realize there are someone who is unlucky, turn their fate to lucky by holding out a helping hand and guide to them.

So stop being Cowell and lets jadi Abdul or Jackson.

*is thinking to have snickers for tonight dinner..aci x??*


Thursday, January 20, 2011

I realy need to do this~


Like in the past year,

I don't have any major resolutions that I would want to fulfill..

Instead setting up some small reso that are achievable nearly possible..

But since in the past I've been having some weight problem..

Yeah, I know for some people you might think it's some sort of paranoia..

But am telling you, it's for the sake of my well being..

The reason to loose weight my note solely based on the aim to look slim and skinny..

It's more like getting in shape..or in other words, the aim is to stay fit..

But for those who has experience some major transformation in life..they agreed that it has also do affect their self esteem..they've become more confident..

But I would like to stress out to never that light of things like this..

It scares me hearing stories that people died at a very young age and most of them due to health complication like heart failure, strokes..and even cancer.

I know the matter of life and death are not a human matter to predict or control..but as we Muslim knows that what is given to us are all loan form Allah, more like amanah...and the least we could do is take good care of it so when we return it the rightfull owner, of course you want to return it in a very good condition..

My reso is trying to shed some kilos...if i don't go swimming, i might go for a jog or go out play some fun games like badminton..Also planning to cut some portion of every meal that I have..The aim is to cut the portions and not to skip meals..Planning to keep a food journal..jotting down every single thing that I eat everyday..hehehe~

I know many of you are with me..

Leave some comments or share any of your health secrets with..you're comment are like diamonds to me..thank you for even reading this random babble..

Let's live health people...hehehe~

Monday, January 3, 2011

Inherited~


Y.E.S, no am not anwering any question

But when it comes to this YES every single girl in this part of the Globe specifically Malaysia, we speak the same language...hohoho..Year End Sale..

But here in Penang, at this time of the month, me and my gorgeous girlfriend would run wild..I mean realy went WILD..the reason behind our wildness is definitely Metrojaya Warehouse Sale..

I simply love this warehouse sale because I can shop for my family..Last year I didn't get the chance to do so becuase I saved up all the money and used it to pay my PTPTN loan..yeay..huhu..

After I borong lots of stuff for my sis and family I went down an isle which is the men section and I fell in love with a few men shirt that I believed would look stunning on Papa (lgpun jarang beli barang untuk papa)..so I give him a ring..because I want to ask for the size..But it was my Mama who answered the phone,

'Assalamualikum ma, ma adik nak tanya papa pakai size ape ek'

'Walaikumsalam, size, x yah la beli untuk papa, jari papa tu pende,kembang kembang cam jari adik, biar papa beli sendiri la kasut...'

*in the background I heard papa laughed out loud*

'Ark, jari kembang mcm adik, mama adik bukan nk belikan papa kasut, saiz baju la mama'

'mama ingatkan kasut td, kalo baju saiz M or S'

*M or S, lihat la betapa fit nye papa ku itu..hehehe*

*so the story was, a few days back, borak ngan mama, ade tny mama what papa wanted for his birthday, because me and sis haven't gotten him any bday prezzie this year and he said papa wanted a new pair of shoe..mama ingt adik nk belikn kasut la gamaknye..hahaha*~

In conclusion, I am daddy's lil girl, they say I am so much like father and that includes jari pendek kembang kembang..sabar jer la...hahaha~

*I had Cadbury roasted almond yesterday...cloud nine*

A letter to someone notifying him that I screwed up~


*am sorry I just find the photo lovely and wanted to share with all of you (xder kene mengena with the post)*



Dear unknown,

Remember that competition that I told you about..

Well I kinda screw the whole thing up due to some miscommunication..just so you know, I screwed up during the selection process..so to cut the story short, I didn't get selected.

But the outcome turns out to be not as devastating as it was suppose to because you told me whatever it is that I was suppose to talk about, I should enjoy the whole process and I did, I even made that professor laugh(I even manage not to look and sound like a clown) and he kind of complimented me on my English my together with impromptu presentation..hahaha..

So I wanted to say thank you..wherever you are..don't stay hidden for to long as I miss your writings.

Truly,
Pumkin Peroz.